The Luckiest

Today is mine and J’s 4th wedding anniversary, and on June 7th we will have been together for a total of 8 years. This may not be long in comparison to some others, and we still have a lifetime to go, but I can’t believe it has been this many years already. By the time I turn 30, I will have been with J for over a third of my life. I met him when I was 19, and we got married when I was 23. I never imagine myself being one of those people who got married at such a young age. I was very independent, and a serial dater before I met J. We got to know each other as friends first, through mutual acquaintances, which I think helped. Plus he was so different from anyone I had dated. He was, and still is, a gentleman; opens car doors, pulls out my chair, holds my hand, tells me I’m beautiful and kisses me goodnight.

We will celebrate with a nice, quiet dinner out, not much pomp and circumstance. We never imagined we would hit our 4 year anniversary, still without children. As we celebrate 4 years wedded bliss, we will shortly be upon 2 years with the pain of infertility. Half of our (relatively) short marriage has been marred by this awful disease. We have struggled with it, but we do manage to enjoy the time we have with just the two of us, despite the fact that we are ready to grow our family.

I am so grateful to have met him. We have been through so much joy (and sometimes pain) over the years together, I can’t picture my life without him. I wasn’t always so sure I wanted to be a parent, but with J, I know I want to have children with him. Even if that day never comes, we have each other, and that can be enough. So to my darling husband, on this day I say thank you, because I am the luckiest.

I loved our wedding day, it was totally us, and although I try to keep this blog relatively anonymous, I can’t help but share some of our wedding photos. (I’ll probably take them down soon, so get your fill now).

*Sorry, got paranoid so the photos of us had to go. Thanks for the photo love for those who viewed them!

 

The Luckiest – Ben Folds (our wedding song)

I don’t get many things right the first time
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns
The stumbles and falls brought me here

And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know that I am
I am, I am the luckiest

What if I’d been born fifty years before you
In a house on the street where you live?
Maybe I’d be outside as you passed on your bike
Would I know?

And in a wide sea of eyes
I see one pair that I recognize
And I know that I am
I am, I am the luckiest

I love you more than I have
Ever found a way to say to you

Next door, there’s an old man who lived to his 90’s
And one day, passed away in his sleep
And his wife, she stayed for a couple of days
And passed away

I’m sorry, I know that’s a strange way
To tell you that I know we belong
That I know that I am
I am, I am the luckiest