#Microblog Mondays: Stuck

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I’ve been back at work for almost 2 months now. It’s been a blur of busy-ness, and illness (mainly baby girl, and mainly from the petri dish that is daycare). I’m feeling a bit run ragged, and I think that J and I are still figuring this balance of me being back at work. Doesn’t help that I’ve also been sick for the past 2 1/2 weeks. But I have this stuck feeling. It’s a similar feeling to before I went on mat leave, before we even got pregnant. At the time, I thought I was feeling that way because we were going through infertility, and then I thought it was just pregnancy hormones, tiredness, ect.

But it seems that it wasn’t, because here I am, still feeling stuck. I didn’t think having a baby would fix my life and complete me (though she is a great addition to our lives) but I thought I would be feeling more satisfied and balanced than I am. I’ve looked at changing jobs but I don’t know what I would do, what I am even qualified for (outside of my field) plus the economy at the moment is not great for job hunting. J and I have talked about moving next year, whether it be just moving houses, or moving cities altogether. I’ve always been moving towards some thing; a goal, an event, something. I don’t know how to just be. Plus I’m tired, and stressed a lot of the time so that probably doesn’t help. I’m mostly just moaning here, because I don’t know what else to do. Life just feels like a rat race lately, and this mama is tired of runnin’.

Oh yeah, and a Happy Halloween!

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#Microblog Mondays: Thoughtul Speaking

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I’ve been back at work for nearly a month and a half now, and Baby Girl has been going daycare. She does really well with it now; drop offs used to involve tears but she seems more comfortable now. But the germs. Oh, the daycare germs are killing us. She’s had a strange rash that disappeared as quickly as it came, pink eye and a cold (coupled with teething molars). Fun times.

So inevitably, I caught her cold and have been rendered nearly mute for the past couple of days. When I get a cold bug that brings a really sore throat I tend to lose my voice. Last night it hurt to swallow let alone attempt to talk in my squeaky whisper of a voice. It is sort of nice to just be silent sometimes (though I’d prefer it to be a choice, rather than illness related) and if it is going to pain you to speak, you take the time to consider if it is worth it. Am I going to strain and pain myself just to complain about something, or fill the air with idle celebrity gossip or the like; probably not. Perhaps I should attempt to adopt this careful, deliberate thought before speaking once my voice returns in full force…

#Microblog Monday’s: Yes, yes, all the yes!

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My Microblog Monday post isn’t my own post, and the linked post is not micro, but it couldn’t wait until Friday’s blog round up;

My response to “Women Who Wish They’d Never Had Kids” and “Why Parents Hate Parenting”First of all, thank you for replying, responding to the “Women Who Wish They’d Never Had Kids” Marie Claire article. For easy reference, right here: http://www.marieclaire.com/culture/a22189/i-regret-having-kids/ And you might also want to check out the I Regret Having Children Facebook page, here: https://www.facebook.com/IRegretHavingChildren I am also going to reference “Why Parents Hate Parenting,” here: http://nymag.com/news/features/67024/index5.html When I stumbled upon the Marie […]
https://theunexpectedtrip.wordpress.com/2016/10/03/my-response-to-women-who-wish-theyd-never-had-kids-and-why-parents-hate-parenting/

I couldn’t have said any of this better myself.

*Edit, I should say I loved The Unexpected Trip’s commentary, rather than the articles themselves.