#Microblog Mondays: The Feedback Loop

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Lately I’ve been more irritable and impatient than ever. Now let me be honest and admit that even before I became pregnant I was not the most tolerant or patient person anyways. But I can tell it’s gotten worse, and it tends to create a negative feedback loop between J and I.

* I get annoyed at something he says or does (or doesn’t say or do)

* I get all irritable and grumpy/snarky

* He then gets all irritable and grumpy/snarky because I am

The infinite feedback loop at work. I can see it happening, but it’s hard to control from the inside and I get annoyed because I feel like he has no right to be annoyed. I’m the pregnant one! (Though I realise putting up with me is surely tiresome).

It’s little things that set me off more than big; I couldn’t find a USB stick the day before our ultrasound appointment (we needed it to get the pictures), my coworkers’ vapid conversations, when I am hungry and don’t know what to eat (this is a bad one, as my hunger only increases my annoyance).

I get that I have a lot of hormones coursing through my body, but I don’t like feeling out of control of my body/emotions (common IF theme here…). Hopefully I can keep everything in check until babe gets here, but I have a feeling then it’s going to be a whole other ball of wax!

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