Well, it seems the time is upon us again. I thought I wouldn’t get a positive OPK until tomorrow, but it appears that last month wasn’t just a fluke early ovulation. After being so busy all afternoon at work I didn’t even have time to pee, I took my full bladder to the staff washrooms and peed on my little magic stick, and wouldn’t you know there was a little smiley face staring back at me.
So tomorrow is the day, the day of my last IUI and the indefinite (but not final) break to my fertility treatment. I’m feeling a bit more zen about it this time. I went to the gym tonight, by myself I might add, which is no big deal but I can’t usually get my ass to the gym unless J is prodding me, and he’s coming too. But I just needed to run some energy off, and feel good.
I can’t really do anything more now. J will do his part tomorrow, in it will go, and that’s that. I was really hoping that the IUI wasn’t going to fall on Wednesday because I am the 2nd closer at work, and they will be rather screwed if I’m not there. Plus I have a buttload of work to do, so I am not going to call in sick tomorrow, as much as I want to just take the day for me.
With my little superstitions, I can be glad tomorrow is an odd numbered day, I don’t like even numbers and last IUI was on Jan. 2. I know, makes no sense. I have a lot whirling around in my head right now. And I sort of messed with my head by testing with OPK’s again tonight, and I didn’t get a smiley face again, but I did get two equal lines on the standard test. So I don’t really know what to make of that. I am going to hope that even if I ovulate overnight, that little egg will be waiting for J’s swimmers by morning. Fuck. I hate not having any control over this.
Also side note, Lindsay (sorry, can never remember if you are “ey” or “ay”, hope I picked right!) at Awaiting Autumn nominated me for a Leibster award. My first ever blogging award, I feel so thankful, and loved as a part of this community. I will accept my award in another post, but just wanted to put that out there because it made my evening!
Ok, so I’ll recap tomorrow, now to relax with my dogs, have my cup of tea and get a good nights sleep. Please keep me in your thoughts, and send me lots of good juju vibes if you can!